Some weird comments I've received lately:

1. Before knowing you, I thought you were an alcoholic.

2. When I saw the milk powder in your kitchen shelf, I know you'll be a good mother.

3) I see a potential in you to join my new religion. Dance music! We'll go to rave parties and pop some pills.

4) You have a wide chest.

5) Out of 10 I'd rate you 7+s. Thats why you fly with me.

I got this vid from my friend and it was really interesting. well, embarassing if i can put it that way. Nadine Chandrawinata, Miss Indonesia 2006 who is competing in Miss Universe event this year.

She is so damn hot but her english is definitely not.

This is funny becoz she's a hybrid (learnt this word from somebody) Germany-Indonesian and the media says she speaks fluent english & germany. the fact is she has just learnt english 3 months before she went for the event. ha ha. i'm not talkin abt small mistakes or mispells *coz i hate it when somebody critizes my silliness, am not a native so bare with that*, but this is a really HUGE, A BIG NO-NO, OH-GOSH-PLEASE-TAKE-IT-BACK kind of mistakes.

u dont believe me? read her interview lines:


Who is your idol?
My admirer is mother Theresa because she's so humble for me, so i am so adore at her(.......hasn't she died already, and y would she admire u?)

What do you want the rest of the world to know about your country?
Indonesia is a beautiful city... so, you should go there to visit by yourself, because we have a lot of beautiful bitch..es,
(Indonesia is your COUNTRY, missy...and yeah...you're one of our beautiful bitches. word.)

shit i dunno y i feel so embaressed abt this. maybe becoz apparently my mom is her brother's lecturer in the university *i think mom shd know abt this*, he's hot too but yeah...who cares? also coz the online voting rates her as a "HOT" out of "SUPER HOT", "HOT", "DESIRABLE", and somethin else. or, maybe by the fact that she represents our country in the international events which requires beauty AND (not OR, nadine...) brain.

maybe i'm to harsh abt this but really, even my lil sis with her lil english knows Indonesia is not a city, its our GODDAM country.

Nadine, come back next year after u learn a lil english, k hon? this year...tell the judges that u got muted all of the sudden, and just smile when they ask questions. You have a very beautiful smile, darling... so u'd better make use of it, and everybody will be happy.

Dear insane,

i can't wait, for tomorrow to appear

and we shall talk,

and grab a bite where none recall us

albeit those few hours


Dear insane,

you flowerchild of mine,

poet of this current time,

to where now my desires belong

and prefer to stay in


Dear insane,

You, being You

the sparkling eyes of yours

which i deeply,

adore as fuck



oh hell yes i do,




but nobody knows

i dunno y almost all old funny cartoon characters had a very funny name.

name it: humpty dumpty. oogie boogie. oompa loompa. willy wonka.

i have a friend with the head shape like humpty dumpty's, whenever he's around he makes me hungry coz his head reminds me of an egg. it makes me wanna eat......umm.......egg.

here goes the jingle: "humpty dumpty sat on a wall, humpty dumpty had a great fall. all the king's horses and all the king's men, couldnt put humpty together again".

thats pretty scary for kid's imagination, humpty dumpty broken into pieces.

i dunno y i talked abt humpty dumpty, it's not even interesting to me. i guess it's all because my lack of sleep these days, why can i not finish assignment more on time? i do weird stuffs, random things to my bloggg, eat too much beans, drink less coke (thats good). anything but sleep.

sleep. awake is the new sleep. haha. i blame the weather. these rainy summer days smell kinda funky to me.

aaron mentioned smthn funny: when somebody gets angry when he's hungry, we shd call him "hangry". hah.

i never wanna be 'too cool' to be friends with lonesome people. i never wanna be 'too cool' to listen to people's hopes, needs and desires. i never wanna be 'too cool' to give my time to people who need it. i never wanna be 'too cool' to be all-in of everyone and simply anyone. i never wanna be 'too cool' to help people realize who they are, and to be comfortable with that. i never wanna be 'too cool' to be passionate and expressive about who God is in my life. i never wanna be 'too cool' to love others with everything that i am. i never wanna be 'too cool' to be free in who i am..

coz the 'coolness' can keep you from everything you are made to be. am sorry God for all the times i was/am 'too cool'. the minute it becomes about me is the minute my Christianity becomes a waste of time. pretty intense... but has been on my heart for such a long time. i honestly believe if we all actually got this.. AND LIVED IT.. our youth ministry.. uni's.. schools.. workplaces.. heck, the world, would be a different place.