the sky is cloudless, still and white.

people always think that tropical countries are set against a backdrop of azure blue skies and turquoise waters

but they are wrong.

the harsh sun has bled the sky dry of all colour,

it has inhaled in all the shades of blue

and left it a blinding white.

so its funny how u could change the whole meaning of a sentence when u add the words 'sort of'. like

"i love you...sort of"

"you're gonna live...sort of".

so ive been doin that lately, adding the words 'sort of' to almost anything i say.

'yeah i've done my paper...sort of'

'yeah the chicken is alrite...sort of'

its amazing how many people i've pissed off

...sort of.

Put your music player on shuffle. Press forward for each question. Use the song title as the answer to the question even if they don't make sense. You'll be surprised though.NO CHEATING!

1.How am I feeling today?
over my head - the fray (woke up furiously at 4 pm, just too difficult to swallow)

2. Will I get far in life?
just like heaven - katie melua (not gettin there yet)

3.How do my friends see me?
fraud - scientificlifestyle (woopsie...ev'rybodys a hypocrite but am not a fan of the word "fraud" here)

4.Where will I get married?
temperature- sean paul (hot degrees..i have hawaii in mind. or egypt. haha)

5.What is my best friend's theme song?
everytime we touch - cascada (eww in several stages)

6.What is the story of my life?
love train - wolfmother (haha cheezy)

7.What was/is high school like?
snap yo fingers - lil jon (awww good times messing around my wasted youth slipped away so quick)

8. What is the best thing about me?
hips dont lie - shakira (figure. okay.)

9. What is today going to be like?
evening sun- the strokes (so true,looked like another gloomy day till the evening sun came up)

10. What is in store for this weekend?
walking after you-foo fighters

(Tonight I'm tangled in my blanket of clouds Dreaming aloud
Things just won't do without you, matter of fact
Ohh ohh ohhhhh, I'm on your back). looks like another weekend daydreaming about my boyfriend,waiting for the day till i see him again :( aauuuggh!!!

11. What song describes my parent(s)?
do i make you proud - taylor hicks (hmmf think it shd be in the other way around)

12. To describe my grandparents?
you're beautiful - james blunt (to grandma, you go girl)

13. How is my life going?
lasting impressions - james vargas

14. What song will they play at my funeral?
i write sins not tragedies - panic! at the disco (AWESOME!!!!)

15.How does the world see me?
that girl suicide- the brian jonestown massacre
(indeed what will all the nasty physical stunts i try to do like drunken trolley rides)

16. Will I have a happy life?
unwritten - natasha bedingfield (guess i gotta wait til it actually happens)

17. What do my friends really think of me?
whats in your world - daryl hall (guess they'd never figure out)

18. Do people secretly lust after me?
for you i will - teddy geiger (ohhh big thanx)

19. How can I make myself happy?
life is a highway - rascal flatts (yea...drive along and speed it up)

1. Home is where you hang your @
2. The E-mail of the species is more deadly than the mail.
3. A journey of a thousand sites begins with a single click.
4. You can't teach a new mouse old clicks.
5. Great groups from little icons grow.
6. Speak softly and carry a cellular phone.
7. C:\ is the root of all directories.
8. Don't put all your hypes in one home page.
9. Pentium wise; pen and paper foolish.
10. The modem is the message.
11. Too many clicks spoil the browse.
12. The geek shall inherit the earth.
13. A chat has nine lives.
14. Don't byte off more than you can view.
15. Fax is stranger than fiction.
16. What boots up must come down.
17. Windows will never cease.
18. In Gates we trust (and our tender is legal).
19. Virtual reality is its own reward.
20. Modulation in all things.
21. A user and his leisure time are soon parted.
22. There's no place like http://www.home.com
23. Know what to expect before you connect.
24. Oh, what a tangled website we weave when first we practice.
25. Speed thrills.
26. Give a man a fish and you feed him for a day; teach him to use the Net and he won't bother you for weeks

I am opting for a little game... here is 10 things about me and one is not true.

The game is which one is not true

1. I've been to NASA
2. My dad ever had a conversation with Fidel Castro
3. I have sung onstage with more than half of Indonesian All-stars
4. My first pet was a flamingo
5. My mom went to the same college with Soekarno, Indonesian 1st President
6. I never smoke
7. I was a secret admirer for about 3 years and still do like him subconsciously
9. I was in 4 magazines at a same period
9. I've got a bad trauma from a car accident
10. I wanted to kill myself and actually made plan

My life seems pretty interesting when i put it like that (fact...not part of the game!)

On my last holiday i went home for 2 months and spent most of my times writing journals, expanded my imaginations thru words and lines. One day i sat down in a very hot lazy day with ice lemonade, a pencil, and some desperations. i looked up to the sky and saw You. you were embodied in this perfect rainbow stretching out from my left to my right, a perfect half circle of colour right above me. the clouds were fluffy and white, reminds me of a cottoncandy, tinged with pink and orange, shades of mango juice in the sky. ahhh i wish i had my crayons in my hand so i could capture your beauty. but i dont think i could ever.

then i heard my lil sisters voice up on my roof. she sat there with her girls talking about boys, while all of the sudden she screamed "look at the sky". i could see her little fingers pointing out to random direction while explaining what she saw to others. she said she saw a bunches of lily tied with ribbon on her right side. "and there, u see?" she made her friends turn their heads to her left when she was explaining a big meeting tables with couples of gentlemen whispering one to another. she said they all look old and european.

the other girls made an "oh there....?" and some humming sounds, showing they could hardly see what my sister did. but i saw exactly what she meant. a very clear vision uphigh in the sky.
maybe some cynic would say it is just a coincidence, but i dont want cynicism right now. i want all the hope in the world.

it runs in the family.

we were on the 33rd floor and the suns' outstretched rays tried to make its way to me through the smog of the city. i was up high. feeling very tall. i could be this giant valkyrie from some twisted tim burton nightmare but i was quiet and looked at all the little people below me.

zip zip wuzz wuzz everybody looks so busy for a lazy sunday early morning. but am feeling really heavy. like am wearing some coat of lethargy. i wonder about the synapses in my brain. see if they're still working cuz i feel so fckn' numb. it's like a miniature world down there.

i can see so far off into the horizon but really cant see at all. its so small and yet so big. and in this littlebig world of zipzipwuzzwuzz busy people i wonder if he is out there somewhere. on the street. walking. under one of the roofs before me. or in one of the little crawling (ant) toy cars below.

if he was. i'd squish him with my big giant valkyrie foot. squish. ha-HAH. ick. take that.

Some people use guns to make other people believe in guns
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Some people use guns to make guns believe in people
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And some beliefs use people to make guns believe
To make guns believe in people
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Peopled by beliefs and guns that people use
To unpeople people of beliefs